Sunday, March 3, 2013

Refocusing.

I feel like I've been on a bit of slump lately.

I haven't been eating well (or mindfully) and I've let my weight creep back up to 160.  Yup, I said it.  That means I have gained back at least 7 lbs.  I want to be down at least 10 lbs over the course of the next month and a half.  It should come off relatively quickly if I stop eating crap and start Zumba-ing this week.  I'm making a cool fabric journal cover for my WW journal to make me notice it and fill it out.

I've just been feeling overwhelmed.  My class has been a social swirl that has felt incredibly draining.  My folks are coming to visit in two weeks.  The house is still a mess.  I spent the weekend chipping away at mess in the guest bedroom/sewing dumping grounds.  The bed still isn't clear, but I'm getting there.  Hope to get there completely by Friday.

We didn't have a location picked for the honeymoon....or rather we did and it was international, but then we realized we really couldn't afford it.  Which made me frustrated and kind of sad.  BUT...we did narrow it down to two domestic choices and picked one this weekend.  We'll be honeymooning in DC, which I'm REALLY excited about, as I lived there briefly, love museums, and the wealth of free activities means we can splurge a bit on the hotel.  Plus, the place will be completely new to The Pirate, as he's never been there.

I've been stalling on wedding planning.  The truth is, I feel guilty spending so much money (and the fact that some of it isn't my money isn't helping).  We're not going crazy on the budget, but I'm still a guilt spender....not sure why...I think it's how I'm wired.  I'm also struggling for ideas to tie it all together.  The ceremony is in an art gallery, but the reception is not (and it is a more old fashioned venue).  We both love books.  I'm not very traditional.  I've never had a dream wedding in mind.  I don't live in the city in which I'm getting married, and I have to get everything sorted when I go up to visit in April.  I'm kind of floundering.  My mom, who is very different than me, style-wise, has lots of ideas, but none of them are exciting to me.  The food part involves a lot of negotiation, as I have some ridiculous allergies, but don't want other people to suffer because of them.  Ack.

I still have to finish my taxes, which, really, I have no good excuse for other than I have to dig through a pile of papers I've been too lazy to file.  That's on tap by tomorrow night.

I have a ton of UFOs.  I spent most of yesterday and part of Friday working to clear them.  Literally, trying to clear my head in a physical manifestation.  (Does that make sense?)  I went at it like gang busters.  I pieced the Malka quilt top and a back.  I sewed together the black, white, and color quilt, even though I'm missing a few blocks...I'll use those for something else.  I also found some flannel in my stash for the back.  I quilted (but didn't bind) the blue Linus quilt.  I have the pink/grey quilt pinbasted, as well as the monster quilt.  I sewed up the Scrap Vomit #2 quilt top and pieced the back.   I sewed up the spider skirt.  (Still have to hem it, but I SUCCESSFULLY installed an invisible zipper!)  I held off on the Tula skirt because the spider skirt fitting forced me to acknowledge that my eating has gotten out of control.  Prior to Sewing Summit (post major weight loss) this size fit.  Now it doesn't.  And I want to sew more clothes but not have to worry about them being too big or too small.  So, refocus it is.

My word for March is REFOCUS, in case y'all couldn't tell.

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I do want to acknowledge all the folks who have given me boosts when I've been feeling down or out of it.  It's helped.  More than y'all can know.  My real life peeps have been overwhelmed with their own lives (or sick) lately, so I've been missing friends.

I'll have a picture post (mostly just pictures) coming this evening.

My plan for today:
Track my food!
Make a cool cover for my WW journal.
Sew some bee blocks.
Cut out the pieces and start working on some pattern testing.





3 comments:

  1. Good luck with your food management! I also fell off the wagon this month, which I'm totally annoyed about, but I too am starting the new month with a clean slate, come on, we can do it!

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  2. Big hugs to you! I'm no help on the weight loss front - I just ignore that entirely. But as always, I'm super impressed with you quilty productivity! As for the wedding, I also go married in and city I don't live in and because I didn't really have a vision for the wedding, I let my mom do ALL THE WORK. Basically, she came to me with options and I said yes or no. Made my life waaaaay easy. xoxo

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  3. Hugs lady! I'm with you on the losing weight thing - I have put on looooots since Christmas. Hope you're feeling less crap soon x

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